here i sit.

with so many thoughts in this jumbled mind of mine. i feel so alive yet i feel so lost. i feel as though i'm misunderstood, or too mature for my own good.

i crave for conversation. conversation with another human being. about something that gets me excited, so excited you can see the light in my face. my eyes brighten, my smile grows...a topic that i'm passionate about...or a newly found passion that i am not yet aware of.

i feel so closed. i want to be opened up. i want to be asked questions that well ignite fire...and life!
i don't want to converse about what drink you're having, or how you should go to the gym, or who you had sex with last night. i'm talking about a real life genuine intellectual conversation.

somebody please?

i know i haven't lost my mind.
i walk down the streets of seattle.
i smile at strangers.
i get excited about sky scrapers.
my heart races when i see pike's market.
i can't control myself when i'm engulfed in incredible beauty.

someday...i know i will run into somebody who has the same passion as i do.

until then...i will be here...smiling with my eyes, being the brave kind hearted person i am.

i appreciate everything around me.
i am amused by every single human being that walks past me.
every one who is anyone who makes the slightest eye contact with me.
when i look into peoples eyes... i can tell if they're shy. afraid. happy.
all i want to do is exchange a look...a look that may make their day.
i crave to make the best of things.
i crave living life to the fullest.
i crave conversation.

are you up for it?